From the LDS Addiction Recovery Manual:

Step 2: Come to believe that the power of God can restore you to complete spiritual health

If we accept that God has all power in the universe and if we accept that he can change our desires, then how exactly does addiction happen? Why doesn’t God take away our desire for it the first time we ask? Addiction is bad, after all. Why would God want us to have it? Why would He make us prone to it? Why am I the way I am?

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The Second Step: What God doesFrom the LDS Addiction Recovery Manual:

Step 2: Come to believe that the power of God can restore you to complete spiritual health

There are a couple of important verses in Alma 5. They are immanently familiar to you, I am sure, because Janice Kapp Perry has written a couple songs based around them. I am just started to get a handle on their meaning, so please allow me to share what I have discovered.

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From the LDS Addiction Recovery Manual:

Step 2: Come to believe that the power of God can restore you to complete spiritual health

I like the way that the second step is worded in the manual because it reminds the reader of something important: God has power. Most LDS addicts accept that God, in theory, is loving. We’ve felt the Spirit. We sat through Primary, Young Womens, and Young Mens. We understand the concept of God’s love.

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From the AA Big book:
2. Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity

From He Did Deliver Me From Bondage (the Heart t’ Heart study manual):
Step Two: Came to believe that God has all power and wisdom and that in His strength we can do all things (Mosiah 4:9; Alma 26:12)

From the LDS Addiction Recovery Manual:
Step 2: Come to believe that the power of God can restore you to complete spiritual health

The funny thing about step two is that it is painfully obvious to most addicts. “Well of course God can restore my spiritual health,” they might say, “I believe in repentance.” The only problem being that they don’t.

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My Step 01

August 4, 2006

As I said before, I had experimented with pn and mb from my youth upward, but I really came into my own in grad school.  As I became more ensconched in my addiction, I began to think of it as helpful.  If I needed to work all night on a paper, I would look at pn once my wife had gone to bed and the worrying surrounding that would keep me awake all night.  When my wife and I weren’t really talking, we seemed to work together better.  Looking at pn helps me make up for my inadequacies in bed.  Thoghts like this actually would occur to me.

When I thought my wife would leave, I actually contemplated what I would do.  I thought that I would have a week long binge, downloading everything I could think of that appealed.  I would then confess it to my bishop, explaining it away as grief at her leaving.  I used to think about how my life would be free-er if she crashed in a car wreck.  I used to think a lot of things.

I want to be clear here.  I love my wife.  I always have.  But addiction really monkeys with your thinking.  Even when I would have those thoughts, I would recoil, disbelieving that I had actually thought that.  But I had.

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Step 01: Honesty

August 4, 2006

1. Admit that you, of yourself, are powerless to overcome your addictions and that your life has become unmanageable.

In the LDS Addiction Recovery Manual, the first step is directly associated with the quality of honesty.  This is a good association.  The first step is about becoming honest with yourself and becoming honest with others.

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Admit that you, of yourself, are powerless to overcome your addictions and that your life has become unmanageable

The truth is that most addicts that I have met are not in denial about their addictions. They are aware of it and they are aware that it is bad. What they are in denial about is the effects of their addiction.

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